if youre not dead by 90, i'll give you a cigarette.

Hi. yeah im blogging, lets get over it together, shall we?

Today i felt like i have to document a moment in someones life that kind of freaked me out a bit. and if I get freaked out im dragging you all down with me, so here goes.

Being a designer, I work at a retirement home cleaning apartments. This job kind of has a doctor-patient confidentiality thing going on (yes I am actually trying to sound important, play along) So I'm going to call my following subject patient X (and pretend i'm Scully). When i arrived at patient X's apartment, she opened the door and rushed back down the hall yelling that she has to go change her sons diaper. Now see, I've met X before, been to her crib, thrown back a few shots (of coffee) with her so i knew all her screws weren't screwed on tight. Ive also met her 60 year old son so naturally I just told her to wash her hands after and broke out the vacuum cleaner.
Soon she would come out of the kitchen, make me get out of the way and say, let me pass quickly, I just want to see if I have a cigarette in there. Go granny I thought, and moved out of her way. And so it began. She would look and look and finally she would come to the conclusion that she was probably out of cigarettes but as soon as her ass hit the chair again, she would get up, excuse herself for bothering me, make her way passed the vacuum cleaner and mumble, im just gonna see if i have any cigarettes hidden away anywhere. For another five-ten minutes id hear all the cabinets in the house opening and closing followed by the toilette seat and the microwave being checked until finally she'd come to me and say "looks like i smoked them all!" Little did she know she'd be up and running around again in about 30 seconds. Five times later, I finally put a cigarette for her in the fridge and low and behold, she spent the rest of the time on the balcony out of my way. In retrospect i guess I overlooked the fact that by having her find something as random as a cigarette in the refrigerator, I must have upped her crazy a little...

But hey, you learn something new every day.



/ ya

I witnessed a murder today.

I was riding home today on the bus, listening to music and not paying attention to anything. As we were stopping at one of the bus stops, a girl in the back started screaming. I looked back and saw her pointing out the window and I followed her stare. Out in a unfenced yard were three guys, two of them standing, one of them was on the ground, bloody. The taller of the two men had a large stick and was about ready to smash it into the downed man’s head again, when the men realized a whole busload was looking at them. As the bus driver called the police, the other man who hadn’t been doing anything took a gun out of his pocket and shot the guy in the head. at this point the whole bus was in shock and glued to the morbid scene, the two men got into a car and sped off. when i came home i was visibly shaken, I told my mom what i had just seen. She got scared and said: “You’re moving with your auntie and uncle to Bel-Air”. I whistled for a cab and when it came near, the license plate said “FRESH” and it had dice in the mirror, If anything I could say that this cab was rare, but I thought “Nah, forget it, Yo homes, to Bel-Air!” I pulled up to the house about 7:00 or 8:00 and i yelled to the cabby, “Yo homes, smell ya later!” looked at my kingdom, I was finally there, to sit on my throne as the price of Bel-Air.

//Yasnaeatsuckafish!

lost generation.

if only this kind of creativity worked,
but everyone knows that money is happiness.

/yasnaeatdestruction

wherever you go, there you are.

And so it goes, I am in Italy. Florence to be exact. The city of culture, art, supposedly good wines but having lived in France, im sceptical. Im actually sceptical to a lot of things here, after having lived in France. and i like saying sceptical. did you know sceptical can be spelled with either a c or a k? now you do. you're welcome. Time is flying by fast and I am still not really used to saying that i live in Italy. I still don't really understand this simple fact. But (you knew there was a but didnt you? you clever reader you.) but, Italy is cool. Im liking it here. Schools going well, friends are great, after a few more adjustments to my new and improved ("woh woh woh, back up for a second, new and improved? don't get ahead of yourself there Ya." said the devil floating over yasna's left shoulder. "shut it miley cyrus" replied the angel on the right. "she needs some time is all".) Soon i will have a new apartment too! this one is quite pricey i do say bruce. who's bruce? So my awesome neighbor and i will be getting an apartment together in the beginning of december. the new "it place".

It's exciting here. Even though I'm secretly kind of disappointed, (I mean, the right kind of coffee is pretty important and there is no finding "normal" coffee here), I love the feeling I get when I discover a new place. New things, meet new people, start over. it's what I'm here to do and im doing it. well, that and photoshop'ing creepy pictures of angelina jolie.

ciao bambini

/yasnaeathelvetica

When I was a kid.

(translated golden oldy off my old blog, cause Im way to tired to write)

* When I was a kid, I would stand in the corner of a room when I was moping about something. I would stand facing the wall and wait for my mom, dad or brother to come get me. When heard their steps getting closer, I stuck out my arm behind me to make sure they saw me. My complete inability to be discrete began here.

* When I was a kid, I was madly afraid of the police. My dad and my brother would team up and as soon as the opportunity showd itself, one of them would make siren noises and the other would pretend to call the police and tell them to come get me. It worked everytime, I used to cry more than when they passed by my arm in the corner.

* When I was a kid, I wanted to be older than my brother. I was always looking forward to the day when I would finally pass him and be the biggest!! But as soon as I turned one year older and moved one step closer to my goal, he'd go and do the same 8 months later. One step forward, two steps back.

* When I was a kid, the sand box was my favorite place on the whole playground. My best friend in the world, Henrik, and I used to quickly throw the sand that was in the sun over to the sand that was in the shadow to see if the sun-sand would glow in the shadow-sand and vice versa. We would sit there for hours, but it never worked.

* When I was a kid, Henrik, Anna and I (the three musketeers at our kindergarden) started a club called "No teeth". Basically you had to loose your baby teeth before all the other kids. Our technique was to wiggle all the teeth that weren't loose until they were, and pull out all the was that were already loose enough. Henrik set the record by loosing 4 teeth in a day, and I was a close second loosing 3.

* When I was a kid, I would often call my mom after I went to bed, so she'd come and tuck me in. But if she was with me when I went to bed, I wasn't allowed to do that. One time I did it anyway cause I had something important to tell her. When I heard steps in the hallway I had forgotten what it was, but luckily I was a quick thinker as a child so I peed in my bed so she'd have something to do when she came.

* When I was a kid, I was a super hero. When the commercials came on, I would put my blanket on (think super-man cape) and stand up on the coffee table. And so the super hero in me took over! I even had an intro to my super hero profile, it went something like this: From couch to couch! from edge to edge! From mother to brother! it's JUMPING BEAN! Then of course I would jump between sofas, armrests and family members.

*When I was a kid, I had an asian boy in my class who's name was Nam. I thought he was very cute, until one day when we were on a field trip with another class and I fell for Nam's cousin instead, Viet. (true story)

*When I was a kid, I took the school bus home by myself once. Two stops before I was
supposed to get off, and let me just say that I was pretty new to the area, I hear a girl screaming my name in the back of the bus. She runs up to me and says "Hi yasna, can we play at my house today? Im megan". When we got off the bus her mom came to pick us up and before I got a chance to introduce myself, she goes "Hi Yasna!" We were best friends for three years after that but I never understood or asked how they knew me.

* When I was a kid, my favorite movie was problem child. Imagine my surprise when I came home one day and found my mom had taped the third and last movie; the only one I hadn't seen!! I still remember that feeling of pride after having seen it six times in one day. I also remember that after that "incident" I had to sit no more than 2 meters away from the tv to see anything and a week later I got my first pair of glasses. Long story short, thanks to my amazing fashion sense at age 7, I had an awesome hiding place everytime we played hide and go seek.

* When I was a kid, Kevin McCallister was a big boy.

// Yasnaeatchildhood

soup du jour.

Hello mes amies, sorry for putting you on hold for so long, lets get this party started.
Let me start you off with a story about blackmail, bribery, corruption... and all the other joys of being an au pair. It's been an intense few days at the mansion. The girl I will refer to as number 2 (ive always wanted to call people by numbers, its powerful) has learned the art of being a pain in my rectum. At the young and hormonal age of ten, she is a hell of a manipulator. Hour after hour in the bathroom to avoid homework (see there is no way i'm going in there to get her), tv addictions that can't be compromised (that would have been awesome to just have her infront of the tv all day, but somethings are forbidden by nr 3, the chief, the mother) and of course my all time favorite.. "the other aupairs let me eat mountains of chocolate before dinner infront of the tv all the time..." Though that would explain alot. If this angel that is nr 2 wasn't aiming her powers of mass destruction at moi, I'd have to say, her ways impress me. But she is so they don't, it mostly just pisses me off.

And then there was thursday... it had been a good day. me and number 2 were having a pillow fight. I had put my computer on the table. Suddenly nr 2's hand knocks over a glass of water onto my baby (who's way too good for being referred to by a number) and the next thing I know I see myself from outside of my own body grasping desperately for air, my life flashing before my eyes.
"oh god, why is there smoke??" my left brain said to my right brain. "Shut up and save the organs!!" it responded with a cloud of panic lingering over its every word. And so I did. Left on my lap a few minutes later was the cold and painfully silent corps of my macbook 13 inch white laptop, may he rest in peace.


Me want to go home. Just for a little while, I'm tired of this sucky routine, I want family, I want my friends and I need freedom. (Damn straight I used the bold function for that, Id do it again if I could).

Granted, having no computer (even though the first few days my hands and knees were shaking, and Im not even kidding) has made me so productive. I've been studying, cleaning and doing all kinds of things that hadn't even crossed my mind before. And its only been 5 days.

There will always be people looking down their noses.
I'll be here, looking up smelling the roses.

Alrighty, lights out,

//Yasnaeattragedy

eggs and wine.

Jarrad Italia. Thank you for following my blog. You rock.
See people, you'd all get that kind of attention if you would just get your thumbs out of your asses and click on the -follow this blog- link. but really Jarrad, miss you man.

Okay so, today I'm going to be talking to you about the relations between global warming and the ecological methods used to prevent it in the northern countries. Or i might just discuss the fact that in the beginning, there must have been someone who once said: see that chicken over there? I'm gonna eat the next thing he pops out of his butt.

Today, our teacher advised us to go out and try the famous french wine that comes out the 22 of november every year. Apparently, this wine is so awesome that it is against the law (seriously) to serve it at restaurants before the 22nd. So as cultural as I am, I went out with this cool american girl in my class to try it and as told, the beaujolais wine was everywhere!!! at 2 euros a glass, we got wasted. Thank you, french wine events. To our defense, what signifies the beaujolais is that it's meant to be enjoyed immediately and not be left to age, so I think we handled that pretty well.

In other news, it is officially on. I am moving to Florence the 3rd of september. I could not look forward to it more. As cheesy as it sounds, i've been listening to nothing but italian music all week thinking "soon, I could be singing along!!!" dormi sepolto in un campo di grano...! or something like that.

ok goodnight

//yasnaeatdrunk